2nd time failure..

first time i felt helpless in my exam...i couldn't do anythings on it...when the time i sat for my add mt exam paper..i noe its gonna be sucks...damn mthr fk...exam was finished and i got back my exam paper,it was the most terrible exam marks in my life..WTH....i only got ?% and i noe will gonna die if my parents noe it and when the time i will having my report card in May..what i only can do is only push myself and prepare for the next exam from now...i must at least got a b4 for my add mt examination in m1st semester exam....but till now,i still worried about something,whether other subject will be screwed like what my add mt having...haizzzzz.....form 4 life is hard...plus i never doing and prepare doing even single revision for this exam...donno whehter i am one of the failure of maths exam? haizzz....this the the 3rd time i fail in an exam and also the worst...all the maths pro guy with studying only got 40+%...so donno wad should i do la...but this time failure is not as sad for my form 3 mac setara exam maths failure...failure is stupid and i will not be a failure in the next exam,and i gonna to repair my maths...i should starts form now to keep studying from now to get a 'UNDISSAPOINTED RESULT' in the first semester examination...what i cant undergo is all people will laugh at me because of my calculation is poor..i must undergo this problem by May exam in order not to suffer more in future....just hopping for the better future...if i cant catch up what teacher is teaching from now,i will be hopeless in the future..and i dont think there is people get more worst then me even in ehsan or kemas..........SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!