i have totally no idea.
i feel like lost,
i am having a bad temper lately and i donno why.
i am very stress lately,having exam and no motivation to study
i need to solve a lot of problem and make me timeless
i donno whether the path i have chosen is correct or wrong
sometime i feel i am not sastify for studying in this college
it is totally different from wad i thought before i finished my sec school
the college life is totally diff from wad i think but still i met some good frens and somehow the college is the best college for law studies
i didnt know whether i made a right choice to choose to study in law field.i hope i made a correct decision
about my sec school,thr are alot of thing i need to solve.take my pmr cert and my sijil berhenti sekolah,i have no idea how they work,i think maybe something happened or too rush to give spm results.tmr gotta go and clarify.

and the lie need to keep forever.forever and ever,no choice.

somehow still need to work hard for my a lvl.i need 3A'S.i hope i get scholarship to study oversea.

signed off

F.U.C.K

suckish fucking day ever.spm results was really a disgrace.so dissapointing for my results,suck to the max.the fking bm,no idea why it turns out a B,the prob is

from form 1 to form 5,i always A,not even A-

and now turn out a B

not even a B+

i am so mad cause of that.

have no mood

slept from 2pm to 7pm

eff up enough

add mt got c+

fk u motherfucker jibai,

really wanna curse

spm is really useless piece of shit

lbg is really fucking bitch

first time so dissapointed with my fking results.

i feel like wanna release stress and fk a bitch

motherfker,

nothing can dissapoint me anymore than this

fk u bitch fuck u

FUCK YOU MOTHERFUCKER JIBAI

first time i curse like this but i really cannot stand it

fuck u lancau ,

babi khinzir babi lancau

wad wrong with the fking pemeriksa,the husband surely did not give her wad her wan.fuck la

get a life fuck off,bitchy

My feeling

it had been one and a half year since i never blog.Today is 16/9/20at i wil10/2.20am midnite...Hari Malaysia..SPM trial coming soon but till now i still haven't prepared yet..i still remember last time i got 4a 1b for my upsr trial and 6a 1b for my pmr trial...but this time trial i think i will doomed..I had only read chemistry and biology form 4..it had been holiday for 3 weeks but i did not do anything.I always feel like i am wasting time but somehow i donno why i don wan to go in room and study ..no motivation...if i study also i cant concentrate,i will sleep or walk out to living room after a few ten minutes. Seriously,i am so worry for my spm...i don think i will get straight A's but i seriously hope that i will got straight A's..because i do not want to let my parent down..somehow i must get straight A's in my spm cause it is the most important exam in our only life..by now,i still haven't decided for wad course i should take next year but i think what i need to do now is definately to get straight A's in SPM..GOD bless me!!..i really need that 10A's....so that my relative wont look down to me...i must prove to them i CAN..but i really have no idea what wrong with me since form 4,since form 4,i was very lazy to study and my result drop faster than the shares...since form 4 i felt i am so not motivated to study and i hope i can really really concentrate in my study for this last 2 months before facing my SPM...that all for today i guess...Tomorrow i must finish reivse my biology ..friday physics..saturday maths and sunday add maths..while monday account...WISH ME ALL THE BEST OF LUCK FOR MY TRIAL AND SPM......GOD BLESS ME

2nd time failure..

first time i felt helpless in my exam...i couldn't do anythings on it...when the time i sat for my add mt exam paper..i noe its gonna be sucks...damn mthr fk...exam was finished and i got back my exam paper,it was the most terrible exam marks in my life..WTH....i only got ?% and i noe will gonna die if my parents noe it and when the time i will having my report card in May..what i only can do is only push myself and prepare for the next exam from now...i must at least got a b4 for my add mt examination in m1st semester exam....but till now,i still worried about something,whether other subject will be screwed like what my add mt having...haizzzzz.....form 4 life is hard...plus i never doing and prepare doing even single revision for this exam...donno whehter i am one of the failure of maths exam? haizzz....this the the 3rd time i fail in an exam and also the worst...all the maths pro guy with studying only got 40+%...so donno wad should i do la...but this time failure is not as sad for my form 3 mac setara exam maths failure...failure is stupid and i will not be a failure in the next exam,and i gonna to repair my maths...i should starts form now to keep studying from now to get a 'UNDISSAPOINTED RESULT' in the first semester examination...what i cant undergo is all people will laugh at me because of my calculation is poor..i must undergo this problem by May exam in order not to suffer more in future....just hopping for the better future...if i cant catch up what teacher is teaching from now,i will be hopeless in the future..and i dont think there is people get more worst then me even in ehsan or kemas..........SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

30 Dec 2008..my big day= PMR result 2008

today is a memorial day and a big day for me..
yesterday i was too nervous till i cant sleep
cos today is de pmr results day
i was so nervous when i went to school to buy books den after dat the results comes out around 10.30am....i ask cik radha bout my results...she show a sign with 2 b...
from the moment i was so shock...but den pn.mumtaz ask us to Q up in dataran ilmu.. i saw pn. norliyanti i ask he do i got straight A's? she said''ada kot'
from that moments i was so nervous...but then after timothy took his results,he was the 1st people who got results tat day in our class...he turned out with straight A's...
den the second person taking the results was me.. i was so shock when i go my result...
i saw the slip thr got 7A but i never see the name...den suddenly pn.norliyanti said congratulations to me...den i saw the name,it is my name...i was sooooo happy and i yelled out.'YES,STRAIGHT A'S' many people cheering there...after tat kahhow got his results..he was damn down cos he got 5a 2b and 1c he got c for chinese..b for english(wtf) and bm...i does not noe why he will got b for his english since his english is so good...same like my upsr last time...i got 3a 2b my english got b since every exam i got A in trial in upsr and my english is the best in form 1 ehsan...haiz...donno wad the hell la..
ming juin turned out with 6a 2 b B for chinese and english
chan got 5a 3b B for bi,bm and chinese
waikent got straight A
King ming got 7a 1b b for malay ..

our school got 13 people scored straight A
they are:
tim
siow
leong
me
janice
azlina
anba
daniel
soong chee ching
toh zhen siew
and 3 ppl donno who

adam and toh weisheng got 7a 1b respectively for chinese and agama..
next yr we will be entering sc stream....every1 good luck

shopping at MV

today went to mid valley with those fella fren..i mean kahhow,tim,ian,leong,and kent...today i wake up at 11 am but i promised to meet my those fren at MCd at 12pm...shit lo..sure late...haha..it was exactly 15 mins late although i nv have my breakfast b4 went out...so afet paying tmnet,electric and phone bill...i went to mcd to meet my fren at 12.30...becoz lackof time i jz simply bought a burger and jz ate it...while on train,damn shit...suddenly felt stomach pain,,shit luck but fortunately,i brought ;medicine...so jz act it den felt ok d....when arrrive we decided to watch house bunny...lols....b4 the show start at 4.40pm...we jz went bowling and i got 112points...pro leh...if u wan de evidence go see my fs pic...i will upload it after a short while....den after watch movie we went for dinner and v decided to back home only at 8.30 to avoided train jamming...haha...den go buy shirt and Tropicana Life...i bought a Wild C hannel t-short...if u wan see go see my pic in the left thr...its cost 70 bucks...haha...den afet buy clothes ...we went to mph book store jz simply see gt wad book den the time shows 8.30 its time for home but de train only arrive at 9pm...so reached Kajang oso around 9.30 dy...wahhhhhhhhhhhh...sooooooooooo tiredddddddddddd

sienzz=bored

almost a week i nv go to school....and it was superb sienz....everyday keep repeating the same day....b4 PMR,i always wish my life was like this but right now after PMR ended,i feel this kind of life is very boring...although i m bore but i never think of go to school...becos i knew tat many ppl would not go to school after PMR....today have decided with Kahhow they all said wan go MV tmr but dono whether go or not la....my life is soooo boring and have nth special to write about..xD